hey there, lonely night.

So...tonight is quite an interesting venture for me. I'm examining my downfalls. It's not that fun, but it has to be done to change, I guess. The problem is, I'm finding too many things that I don't like. I think there should be SOME things that I like, you know...but I'm so analytical! Yet another thing I don't like. 

These are the things that I would like to change:

-I'm way too sensitive. I take everything personally, and I don't show it at all so people don't know that they offend me.

-I hold grudges.

-I fall in and out of love too fast...well, with one exception.

-I'm so socially inept. I'm effusive and scary.

-I overanalyze to the point of making myself worry if I said something wrong from the tone of a laugh. What the hell?

-I think everyone is out to get me. I'm always looking over my shoulder...so paranoid.

-I flirt with everyone. It's gross. I don't know how to stop. I flirt with women, and I don't even swing that way. I think it creeps people out.

-I idolize people with qualities that I want. 

-I only sing in the shower, or in the car. Come on! I know I need to get out there and show my stuff, but I'm SO shy. 

-I'm so old fashioned with the whole dating idea. It doesn't work, since all guys want now is something nice to look at that doesn't talk. I want to be wined and dined. Maybe not wined, it gives me a headache. 

-I have a lot of freckles. Whenever someone stares at me, I think that they're counting them or something. I want to connect the dots some day.

-My pupils are always so huge. No, I'm not high...thanks. 

-I expect so much out of people! If I don't get it, I'm so angry at them...when I shouldn't have even expected it in the first place.

-I'm messy as hell. I'm always disheveled, my room is never clean, I leave crap everywhere...God bless my roommate in college. 

-I'm really skinny and I can't gain weight. Oh, and I hate eating. That makes it kind of hard.

Okay, I'm done now. Just had to get that out. Thuuuuper cool.